Someone on Facebook has posted a question - what would you say to your younger self? So I thought about it, and this is what I think I would say...
Yep, I've done the impossible and managed to write you a letter from the future. I know I won't have to try to hard to convince you it's real, because you've always been (and always will be) open to the impossible. Years of trying to get the tooth fairy to write back to the countless letters is evidence of this.
To start with - you should know that no matter what you're thinking, going through, doing - everyone else is going through the same thing. No one is as grown up as they seem - and just so you know, most people won't grow past the maturity level of a 17 year old. The ones that tease you about being a bit different - ignore them. Each and every one of them do not amount to much in the future. You learn to shut them out completely eventually, but telling you this may save you a lot of stress in those early years of highschool. The people that end up mattering, are a bit like you. You'd be surprised how much of a dork other people are in their own way.
You're not as bad at maths as you think. You're actually very, very good at it. It's the environment you don't like. The system of sitting in a classroom being talked at by an out of date teacher is not for you. But you still should study as much as you can. It won't change much I don't think, but you need to learn to sit through the boring stuff and not procrastinate. Life is filled with the things we don't want to do. It matters how you deal with it.
Save money. You can still buy what you want, but curb the spending. You're making A LOT of money for the circumstances you are in, and this could make a huge difference later on. Like I said, you're better at maths than you think you are.
Don't stress about not reaching your goals. They change, and you will end up knocking quite a few off early on compared to others. You will live by the sea, and in the city. You'd be surprised that what you do in your spare time on the computer is a direct reflection of your future career. People make a living doing what you do. People who are good at it make a great living.
You'll stop obsessing about money as you get older and focus on security. You will realise that 99% of people don't care that you've got a blemish, or your bum is a bit too wide. Those that do are usually female, and those things are the only thing they have got to try and bring you down. One of these people will be your boss.
All in all, you turn out okay. You should probably try and get into the habit of exercising more - that would help future you out a lot. You should keep writing in your journals, and stop censoring it. I get what you mean, but the thoughts of a 12 year old are much better when you just let go.
And just because I know you'll never believe me - you know that guy Patty Doyle in your grade? Well, you'll actually become really good friends with his little brother - who's a good 5 or so years younger than you. Seriously, you're exactly the same, it's hilarious.