The beautiful warm weather has disappeared today and it feels like a crisp Winter's day. Which means one thing - I'm closed up in the study with my little heater going. I like having feeling in my fingers and toes.
Today I am thinking about a couple of things.
Firstly, I am thinking about how great it would be to either a) have our own place or b) actually live somewhere that's suited to what we need. The house we're currently renting is, for lack of a better word, a dive. Small kitchen, small bathroom, limited options when re-arranging the furniture. Old carpets and paint make me feel like I could never feel at home here. We keep meaning to pack everything up and move, but it's just so much work - especially when you've moved so many times before, you're kind of over it all (hence the musings about getting out own place).
Secondly, I've come full circle to the job situation at the moment. I am feeling restless and wanting to expand. This comes from a couple of instances at work over the previous two days. First off, I become unbelievably frustrated when management decided to put their ears back on and listen to my repeated complaints about the backlog of work. Now, I must say here that at work, I'm not one to whine at management constantly. This is because a few months ago in a candid chat with my CEO, I discovered that he hates this. With a passion (as anyone would really). He likes solutions. If you have a complaint, offer the solution (or what you think would be best). So that's what I do. State the problem, then recommend the solution. It hasn't served me wrong yet. Except for this backlog of work. Over the past three or so weeks I have stated the following:
a) They have introduced a new service to our customers which takes up a lot of time.
b) This service, just happens to have a huge profit margin so it is clear, it's important to ensure it's done correctly.
c) To work effectively in ensuring the service is carried out (to ensure said profit) we must dedicate either time (and allow other, less important tasks to fall away or strictly prioritise) or people (and hire someone else).
My situation with the latter is that management need to step in. I unfortunately, have not been given the authority (and have been told I do not have the authority) to create a strict priority system (they seem to think I live in a bubble and keep completely unaware of what I do for work - but that's not to say I am not HIGHLY aware of what needs to be done and what doesn't). And with the extra pair of hands, they would hit the roof if I went out and hired someone off my own back.
So three weeks down the track I say in a flat mono tone, the same speech I have been saying all that time. And my CEO looks at me and says, "wow, we really need to dedicate some time to this (I already knew that). The profit margin on these things is huge (I already knew that too)."
It all boils down to me getting pissed off for the fact that they didn't listen to me to start with, or even pretend to. And they've realised three weeks too late that they should do something. And I'm driving home fuming that now, the backlog of work makes me look bad ('cause I sit on my hands all day it seems) and they'll be making a big deal of it all, as if it's something that's just jumped out and surprised them. And I know that they'll bring it up if ever my manager wants to screw me down on anything, like a pay increase and mention that I should have managed it properly, but forget that when I did I was told exactly "Meagan, that's not your concern, don't worry about that." (from management) and from other staff, "Meagan, they're meant to manage it, not you. That's why they're paid the big bucks. Don't stress yourself over it, just do your job."
I guess I can't complain. I'm still there, so it mustn't be that bad. Although I will say my resume and portfolio are all up to date and the Aquent rep's business card is burning a hole in my pocket.
Perhaps I have issues with authority? Not sure. I can't be one to turn up and be a faceless number in a giant organisation. Do your job, don't ask questions. Go home. End of story. Yuck. Worst nightmare.
One to think about I guess... "A real decision is measured by the fact that you've taken a new action. If there's not action, you haven't truly decided."